Do I Have To

Do I have to say goodbye to her?
If I don't
Won't she remain?
If I don't say goodbye
Will she still be alive?
My tears blind me
In a pain
That she must have felt
I couldn't help
For her pain I would have taken
Oh, how she must feel forsaken
By me, her friend
I shall remain till the end.

Come to me

Come to me
Softly
In the middle of the night
Take me to your world
For I am eager to go
Take me from this place
In which I live
I'm so very tired
Tired of my sorry
Mortal existence
Allow me
Free reign
In your world
I can no longer
Be accounted present for
Show me the
Wonders of
Immortal reality
        -Belle Mortum

Coldness At the End.

As your darkness
Creeps in
I feel my soul
Growing cold
The sharp bite
Of the blade
As it digs in
The welcome
Coldness
Of the blade
The warmth
Of my blood
As it spills
Down my skin
And the
Coldness
At the
End.

Cannot Know

I cry the tears you cannot see
I have the pain that you cannot feel
The bite of the blade
As the pain hits
I am released
I am beaten and broken
Yet these things leave me no scars
My pasted smile
My acted and practiced laugh
You couldn't tell when
I'm in pain
I shake from trying
Not to end it all now
I long to end it all now
Long to drive the blade in
All the way
I  long to feel the warmth
Of my blood
As it roles down my skin
I long to feel the
Coolness
At the end.

Arms Of Another Woman

In the arms of another woman
He is happiest
In the arms of another woman
He will never be mine
If he is truly happy
Then I will stand by
And suffer in my
Painful silence
In the arms of another woman
It is where he wants to be
In the arms of another woman
He is slowly killing me

Another One

Dying inside
Needing your touch
Looking at you is painful
I want you so much

I can't help but love you
And I believe that you know that
You have my heart
But treat it like trash

Going insane
Needing you near
Willing to sit by
With other women here

Sitting silently by
Crying on the inside
Letting you live your life
While I am dying inside

You have somehow
Managed to get in
When I swore I would not let you
Soon it is to be my end

Everyone knows
Everyone can see
But you seem to not know
And that hurts me

Another For Him

A kiss cooled by fire
Passions unrestrained
Lips which brought me pleasure
Now bring me pain

I cross seas of damaged dreams
On winds of yesterday
When I sought to draw you near
You deftly slipped away

The rain is my masquerade
Clouds are my disguise
Pools that are gathering
Flow from red stained eyes

Promises are shattered
Broken vows remain
My love grows stronger still
As I whisper your name
They turned you inside out

Our fates are locked together
In a death embrace
I pray you will return
Refill this empty space

And I do believe in miracles
Angels and devils as well
I am too bad for heaven
And too good for this hell

Am I Alive

Where am I?

Have I already gone?

Has my show ended?

What has happened?

I wasn't finished yet

I haven't told those I love goodbye

I want to hold my friends and cry

I cannot leave them now

For they are the only things

That keep me alive

Or kept me alive

A Plea

Turn, spinning as the wind is blowing
Goddess hear my cry, my plea
Send this one away from me
My temper boils, my body shakes
I do summon you
Athena and Isis
For strength and grace
The help that I ask for
Is so that I do not seriously
Harm the one who has wronged me
Guide me with the strength and grace
To walk away
Three times three times three
I ask that this be.